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So, for the past couple years I have been struggling with some serious depression. It has taken it's toll on absolutely every aspect of my life; friendships, self esteem, and motivation are the biggest victims. I have lost my ability to draw. Every time I put pencil to paper nothing comes out, or if it does, I am completely unsatisfied with it.

I used to love drawing because it gave me an outlet. I could draw whatever I wanted, whomever I wanted, and it was fun! But somewhere along the way my depression started talking and all it told me was "you're no good!" or "give up, everyone else is better!". I lost the ability to have fun with what I was doing and it became a painful thing, a reminder of how inadequate I was at everything else.

Oddly though in the downtime from drawing I was able to channel that energy elsewhere. I fought very hard and became much better at sewing than I ever was before. I am a fucking whiz in the kitchen and can cook anything. I want that kind of passion and fight back in the hobby I've held the closest to my heart. 

I've resolved to change all that and go back to the beginning. I'm starting over. From now on it doesn't have to be good, it just has to be fun! So here's to a hopefully new beginning. 
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til the last beat of my heart.
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United States
Current Residence: New Mexico
Favourite genre of music: Alternative, New Wave, 60s pop & Jpop, 1920s - 1940s Big Band and Swing, Delta Blues
Favourite genre of movie: Horror
Favourite cartoon character: Usagi-chan! Nico-chan!
Currently watching: Sailor Moon Crystal, Love Live!, Oshiete! Galko-chan, Konosuba
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UnicronWars Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Happy belated birthday! :iconcakeplz:
I got you a llama! :la: :llama:
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dreamwatcher7 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Thank you for all the wonderful comments and the faves. I hope you have some more of your art and pictures coming for us too.
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