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So, for the past couple years I have been struggling with some serious depression. It has taken it's toll on absolutely every aspect of my life; friendships, self esteem, and motivation are the biggest victims. I have lost my ability to draw. Every time I put pencil to paper nothing comes out, or if it does, I am completely unsatisfied with it.
I used to love drawing because it gave me an outlet. I could draw whatever I wanted, whomever I wanted, and it was fun! But somewhere along the way my depression started talking and all it told me was "you're no good!" or "give up, everyone else is better!". I lost the ability to have fun with what I was doing and it became a painful thing, a reminder of how inadequate I was at everything else.
Oddly though in the downtime from drawing I was able to channel that energy elsewhere. I fought very hard and became much better at sewing than I ever was before. I am a fucking whiz in the kitchen and can cook anything. I want that kind of passion and fight back in the hobby I've held the closest to my heart.
I've resolved to change all that and go back to the beginning. I'm starting over. From now on it doesn't have to be good, it just has to be fun! So here's to a hopefully new beginning.
I used to love drawing because it gave me an outlet. I could draw whatever I wanted, whomever I wanted, and it was fun! But somewhere along the way my depression started talking and all it told me was "you're no good!" or "give up, everyone else is better!". I lost the ability to have fun with what I was doing and it became a painful thing, a reminder of how inadequate I was at everything else.
Oddly though in the downtime from drawing I was able to channel that energy elsewhere. I fought very hard and became much better at sewing than I ever was before. I am a fucking whiz in the kitchen and can cook anything. I want that kind of passion and fight back in the hobby I've held the closest to my heart.
I've resolved to change all that and go back to the beginning. I'm starting over. From now on it doesn't have to be good, it just has to be fun! So here's to a hopefully new beginning.
Back
I'm back. I was still working on projects, but mostly sewing and baking. Bought myself an iPad10 and pencil to try to get myself back into it. Being more portable has helped a lot. I've got some recent stuff I'll be uploading over the next few days. A lot of it will be random OCs because I find myself getting intimidated drawing fanart recently. Going to focus on things that I enjoy.
Still here
I'm rarely on here, but I am trying to build up my online presence in positive ways again. I spend too much time on social media and flash games and too little time creating my own stuff. I need to remember I have outlets for creation at my disposal.
I hope to be around more in 2018.
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So, for the past couple years I have been struggling with some serious depression. It has taken it's toll on absolutely every aspect of my life; friendships, self esteem, and motivation are the biggest victims. I have lost my ability to draw. Every time I put pencil to paper nothing comes out, or if it does, I am completely unsatisfied with it.
I used to love drawing because it gave me an outlet. I could draw whatever I wanted, whomever I wanted, and it was fun! But somewhere along the way my depression started talking and all it told me was "you're no good!" or "give up, everyone else is better!". I lost the ability to have fun with what I
SO ADORABLE!
Look what ~dreamwatcher7 (https://www.deviantart.com/dreamwatcher7) drew for me! I'm speechless and touched! I've never received gift art before!
You are a total sweetheart! :heart: My two biggest fandoms together!
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That's right! It just has to be fun! That's what it's all about
It reminds me when I was a kid and we'd all play guitar hero and I'd get upset cause everyone had a better score than me. And Pampaw would say that I had to focus on just beating my score and getting better myself than worry what other people got. That advice always helps me personally when I draw everyday.
I just got over a huge draw depression block myself, I hadn't drawn anything in months and had no passion to draw either and one day I just sat down and it came out on paper again for once. What I'm saying is that sometimes you need to back away and take a break and when you are ready, you're ready! You are amazing at sewing, cooking, writing and drawling! I still want to take lessons from you when we visit sometime!
And I hope you feel better with the depression, I want you to know that I'm always here for you
It reminds me when I was a kid and we'd all play guitar hero and I'd get upset cause everyone had a better score than me. And Pampaw would say that I had to focus on just beating my score and getting better myself than worry what other people got. That advice always helps me personally when I draw everyday.
I just got over a huge draw depression block myself, I hadn't drawn anything in months and had no passion to draw either and one day I just sat down and it came out on paper again for once. What I'm saying is that sometimes you need to back away and take a break and when you are ready, you're ready! You are amazing at sewing, cooking, writing and drawling! I still want to take lessons from you when we visit sometime!
And I hope you feel better with the depression, I want you to know that I'm always here for you